Friday, January 27, 2006

Blog Snob!

Ok I cannot put off blogging another day. I have people calling me to see if I am still alive. However maybe I should stick to the no blog thing b/c they also said that they actually had to call me to see what I have been up to.The reason I have not blogged is because my brother was visiting for two weeks and we were to busy working on our tan. We went to the beach almost every day, and if we were not at the beach we were at the pool with a nice cold beverage in hand. This was my brother's first time to Hawaii and it was nice to be a tour guide again. It was great having my little bro around again. He is 6 years younger then I am and I had not seen him in 2 years so we had allot of catching up to do. He is such a sweet guy who wears his heart on his sleeve. He left her almost certain that he does not want 4 kids. I told him you do not start with 4 and you can try one out and work your way up from there. Lets just say there was never a dull, or quite moment around here. I am also very proud to say that he quite smoking while he was here! At $10 a pack in Canada he will be able to afford to visit more often. I never smoked but I here it can be a hard habit to break so cuddoes to Aaron for sticking to his commitment.

Benjamin update. Ben is doing well in Kuwait and is staying really busy with work and his masters degree. Being busy is helping his days go by faster, so that is good. We have however decided that we are definitly getting out of the Air Force after this tour. We have three years left in Hawaii and then it is good bye Air Force. This is just not the life for us. We are way to family oriented to be separated over and over again. The Air Force has done well for us but we are ready to settle down in one place. So that being said in 3 years we will be moving back to Texas (Tyler) and finally settle down for good. Ben's dad will be ready to retire around that time and he will take over his dad's company selling life insurance. Ben will be done with his MBA by then and we can welcome back the civilian life style.

Addison however is not doing quite so well. Saying goodbye to my brother Aaron broke her and the fact that her daddy has been gone for almost a month now came and slapped her on the side of the face. She clung around my brother's neck and begged him not to leave. She was crying hysterically and we practically had to pull her off, my heart breaking the whole time. That night I put her to bed and moments later while getting ready for bed myself I heard her screaming for her daddy in her bed begging for him to just grab her hand. I ran to see her and she was literally reaching out for her dad. My poor girl is going to need therapy soon if she has to say goodbye one more time. She is my emotional one and I just feel so bad for her. Time is just not going by fast enough and in a few weeks my dad is coming and we will have yet another departure at the airport. Keep her in your prayers.

Londyn had her 2 month Dr appt today. I cannot believe she is two months already. She had to have shots. That is another thing I usually make daddy do. I hate needles and it nearly kills me to see them stuck into my children. I make Ben be the bad guy and hold them while they get stuckl and then I come to their rescue after it is all done. I love being the good guy! Today however I had to be both the bad and the good guy, and I can vouch that the good guy position is much better.

My best friend from Canada and her husband are coming next week and I can't wait to see them again. She was my roommate and partner in crime in collage and we have some great and not so great memories from that time. Lets just say an ex-lax diet was not such a good idea. Anyway we are going to have a blast while they are here, and I can't wait.

Well that is about all that is new around here. Hopefully I will not be such a blog snob any more, but in my defense I don't exactly have allot of spare time with my four rugrats, I mean angels hanging from my every limb most of the day, and night.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Bells ringing in my ears

So it is 6am, and I am of course asleep, along with the rest of my house, when our alarm starts ringing. I have a key pad in my bedroom so I disarm the alarm, and wearily go downstairs to see why it went off. The sliding glass door in the kitchen was slightly open so I start looking around the house for any signs of anyone. I did not see anything and did recall, that I had not double checked that door before I went to bed and it could have been left slightly ajar from the kids earlier that day. So all of a sudden the alarm starts going off again. I run up stairs to check on the kids and when they were fine I called the alarm company to let them know what was going on and that it was probably a false alarm. Since it was going off even after it was disarmed made me think it was a glitch in the system. SO I am on the line with the tech guy and he is having me push all these buttons when the alarm starts ringing again. He does not recognize the sound of the alarm as being one of theirs so he askes, "Are you sure there are not any other alarms in the house that could be ringing?" Like an idiot I look up and it was the fire alarm, which had apparently run out of batteries. Oops, he he, flip my blond hair over my shoulder. In my defense though I was dead asleep, hear and alarm, and freaked out. So by then I had the tech on the phone, Corben coming out of his bedroom, the fire alarm ringing, and Londyn screaming bloody murder upstairs. Time to start a new day!

Friday, January 06, 2006

Better then I had expected.....

Well we are coming to the end of day three without Ben. I have to say it is getting easier and truth be told I am so busy with the kids and school all day that it feels like I wake up and before I know it the sun is setting on another day. I guess that is one good thing about having 4 kids while Ben is deployed, I do not have TIME to think about missing him too much. I have gotten two emails from him so far and my heart skips a beat every time I hear the phone ring. Today however we were at the pool with a friend and my cell phone started ringing. I did not even hear it when she says "is that your phone?" I grab it as quick as I can and I bring it to my ear just in time to hear the click of the person hanging up. I say hello five times begging him to come back when the operator comes on and asked if I had just received a call from someone overseas. I say yes and he says "oh sorry well I guess you will have to wait for him to call back. " AGGGHHHHHH! The good news is he left a message and I did get to hear his voice at least. He said he would call me back tonight but I have not heard back from him yet and it has been 3 hours and 15 minutes!! So you know what I will be doing tonight. Sitting on my phone and willing it to ring. I feel like a thirteen year old school girl who just kissed a boy for the first time and waiting for him to call for a second date. I even have a zit to play the part!

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Stay Puff marshmallow women.....

That is who I look like today! My eyelids are so puffy from crying it looks like I got collagen injections from a bad plastic surgeon and he hit the wrong spot. In fact if I were on the show Nip/Tuck I would look like a Dr. Bobble customer for sure. Anyway for those of you that do not know, Ben left yesterday. His cab pulled up to the house right on schedule at 7:15am. We got up at 5:30 and watched the minutes click by faster then normal until the dreaded 7:15 where the honk of the cab horn could be heard. It still does not seem real and I keep looking at the door waiting for him to walk through and say JUST KIDDING! My heart is physically hurting ever since he walked out the door, and all I can do is pray that the time goes by fast. The kids are doing pretty well so far. Addison(6) cries every now and then and Corben (2) still insists that he will be coming home from work any minute, and gets mad if I try and tell him otherwise. Camryn(4) just seems a little more mellow then usual, and of course Londyn(2 months) is pretty clueless, or maybe not because she fussed all night last night. I just want to thank everyone for their prayers and support. No one has a magic wand that can bring my husband home, but it is nice to know that I am not alone. I was excited to get an email from him this morning. He was about to start the third leg of his journey and was in Guam on his way to Japan. From there he goes to Thailand, and then on to Kuwait. The last time he was deployed he was at a different base and we both had webcam and we could see and talk to each other every day. This time however he is not aloud to instant message and can only email once a day if he stands in line for a 20 minute time slot on the computer. There are usually a bunch of people trying to use the computer all the time and you have to wait a few hours just to get your turn. He is also aloud 2 15 minute phone calls a week, but by the time he talks to me and all the kids we each only get a couple minutes. I just feel so bless that I have family and friends coming to help me out for most of January and Febuary. Then for March and April by the grace of God a girl that is interested in a nanny position just feel into our lap. She is from Texas and used to babysit for my sister in-law. She is a 20 year old nurse who is going back to school for her RN and thought it would be fun to get away and spend a few months n Hawaii before starting back to school. So we are paying for her ticket here and she will live with us and have Ben's car to drive and in exchange she will be here to watch the kids if I need to go out or run errands. So that being said we are very excited to have all the help, and that to will make the time go by easier and faster. Once again thanks for all your prayers I need to hop in the shower while the baby is sleeping. If Ben were her he would use his dry humor to say don't hop in the shower you might fall and hurt yourself.

Monday, January 02, 2006

Good-bye 2005

2005 was a great year for us! We live in Hawaii, we bought a house, we had a gorgeous baby girl, we had lots of visitors, and made some great friends. Unfortunately 2006 is starting out not so good. Ben is leaving in 2 days and it is really hitting me hard. I feel sick to my stomach and cannot even look at him without crying. I just pray that the next 5 months fly by and he returns home safe.
For New Years we went to a gathering at our old neighborhood. It was a good time and the kids had a blast running around with all their friends. We got to bed at about 2am and everyone slept until 10 the next morning, so that was great!
I have been keeping a secret for a few months now and I think it is there first time I have ever actually kept a secret that long. Keeping secrets is not my specialty but now I can finally let it out. My little brother is expecting his first baby and I am so excited. They told me when they first found out, but were not telling the rest of the family until they came home for Christmas. So I had to bite my tongue to not shout it from the roof tops. Since my brother is 5 years younger then me I always thought my kids would be grown up before he started having kids, but now Londyn and his baby will only be 8 months apart so that is so cool. Congratulations Bryce and Patty, I could not be more happy for you two.
I have so much to write about but so little time, not to mention having trouble concentrating with so much on my mind. So I will write again soon, but for now I want to eat up every minute I can with my fabulous hubby before he leaves. I will leave you with a picture of Londyn in her
New Years Outfit!