Stay Puff marshmallow women.....

That is who I look like today! My eyelids are so puffy from crying it looks like I got collagen injections from a bad plastic surgeon and he hit the wrong spot. In fact if I were on the show Nip/Tuck I would look like a Dr. Bobble customer for sure. Anyway for those of you that do not know, Ben left yesterday. His cab pulled up to the house right on schedule at 7:15am. We got up at 5:30 and watched the minutes click by faster then normal until the dreaded 7:15 where the honk of the cab horn could be heard. It still does not seem real and I keep looking at the door waiting for him to walk through and say JUST KIDDING! My heart is physically hurting ever since he walked out the door, and all I can do is pray that the time goes by fast. The kids are doing pretty well so far. Addison(6) cries every now and then and Corben (2) still insists that he will be coming home from work any minute, and gets mad if I try and tell him otherwise. Camryn(4) just seems a little more mellow then usual, and of course Londyn(2 months) is pretty clueless, or maybe not because she fussed all night last night. I just want to thank everyone for their prayers and support. No one has a magic wand that can bring my husband home, but it is nice to know that I am not alone. I was excited to get an email from him this morning. He was about to start the third leg of his journey and was in Guam on his way to Japan. From there he goes to Thailand, and then on to Kuwait. The last time he was deployed he was at a different base and we both had webcam and we could see and talk to each other every day. This time however he is not aloud to instant message and can only email once a day if he stands in line for a 20 minute time slot on the computer. There are usually a bunch of people trying to use the computer all the time and you have to wait a few hours just to get your turn. He is also aloud 2 15 minute phone calls a week, but by the time he talks to me and all the kids we each only get a couple minutes. I just feel so bless that I have family and friends coming to help me out for most of January and Febuary. Then for March and April by the grace of God a girl that is interested in a nanny position just feel into our lap. She is from Texas and used to babysit for my sister in-law. She is a 20 year old nurse who is going back to school for her RN and thought it would be fun to get away and spend a few months n Hawaii before starting back to school. So we are paying for her ticket here and she will live with us and have Ben's car to drive and in exchange she will be here to watch the kids if I need to go out or run errands. So that being said we are very excited to have all the help, and that to will make the time go by easier and faster. Once again thanks for all your prayers I need to hop in the shower while the baby is sleeping. If Ben were her he would use his dry humor to say don't hop in the shower you might fall and hurt yourself.